3.25.2015

A Bittersweet Week


The first picture of all four of us. 

At our gender ultrasound appointment, two days before my water broke, we discussed a tentative date to have a c-section with my doctor. She voiced that she recommend a c-section at 37 weeks for her twin moms and we agreed. So we went ahead and looked at a calendar, found my 37th week, and planned for that Monday, March 23rd. I thought, what a wonderful way to start a week

I expect that had everything gone the way we'd planned (ha!), we'd be taking home two beautiful, health baby girls this week. Instead of typing this, I'd be listening to two newborn girls, using their perfectly healthy lungs, to scream and cry - alerting us that they are hungry or want to be held. But I'm not. I'm surrounded by late-night silence. A cruel reminder that things did not go the way I prayed they would. 

That being said, given everything that has happened in the past five months, I'm incredibly grateful to be able to hold and love on a relatively healthy baby. It may only be twice a day, with limited amounts of time to keep her out of her isolette, but it's more than I could have asked for. It's more that what statistics say I should have. And soon enough, I will no longer be surrounded by late-night silence. 

For that I am grateful. 

It is a bittersweet week. 

3 comments:

  1. I have followed your journey through this blog and I just want to express my condolences for Mary Elliot. Both of your girls are troopers and it is clear that they get that through their parents. You and your husband are incredibly strong and you are very brave and selfless for posting this journey. I wish all the best and lots of strength to Sadie.

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  2. I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been following your blog for quite some time and was thinking about you all wondering when you'd update and was devastated by your last post. I hope this time passes quickly and your little girl is strong enough to take home very soon.

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  3. I also have been visiting your blog hoping to see some good news for you. I'll be praying that you get to bring your other little girl home soon. Best wishes xx Becky

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